Painting...

It's funny- but after doing a whole lot of one thing- like teaching and focusing on one section of this creative world- I come home and feel overwhelmed and itching to do anything but what I was doing.
This being said, the first thing I did after I came home and settled in, was go out to my studio and clear off a table area where I had been working feverishly on jewelry, and set up my easel and paints. Last night, I worked on trying to finish up my Octo-Dolly painting.


I added in the spots and now I am left with the details. I need to work more on her face and hands and of course the bottom where she is standing on the wooden folding yardstick. I then plan on moving onto painting my Siamese cats- like the drawing I did. I just keep seeing it as a painting. I am really excited to try out something which should prove to be very detailed. I will be working on a nice small square panel box which is about 3 inches deep!

After that painting, I have a couple of others which I want to do- including a few from some little old dolls I acquired as well as a painting for Thomas which is an organ-grinder monkey with a fez... I just hope to work a little faster.

Painting is a challenge for me. It is never easy or predictable. I like that. I have dreams of becoming a famous painter. More so than anything else. Well- I also have a serious passion for photography which I hardly share. Although I did get a Flickr account and I am trying to take interesting photos for myself. I like the history which accompanies these art forms.

Last night, while I was trying to fall asleep, Thomas noticed I was having a serious moment of pouting followed by fussy- frustration by the way I was hiding under the covers. He asked me what was wrong and I said that I was feeling particularly dark and frustrated and mad.

I had gotten a rejection email from the local Craft group for vending in December. I actually thought I was going to get in. I even paid up-front. But no... I got rejected. Which made me totally feel horrible. I feel like I did when I was younger and didn't seem to really "fit in" with the in crowd. I was really looking forward to vending locally and meeting people from here. I also thought it was great to do before the Holidays.  Ahhh rejection. Yes... I take it so personally.

So Thomas asked me if I was going to continue on with my pity-party or if I was going to move on and not let something like that get me down and to find something to replace it- followed by- a reminder of what I have accomplished and a kiss on cheek... ONLY Thomas can get away with this kind of honesty with me. I hate that and appreciate it all at the same time. Haaa...

I think I just need to be self-motivated and not driven by deadlines. So I am going to "try" and focus on making some small shrines as a series and maybe I will find a place to show them- It has BEEN too long since I last had a show...

Okay- well- I have some delicious brewed coffee and I have some paperwork to do. More about my inner struggles will have to wait until later today...
Thanks again for sticking with me.

XoxoxoX

 

P.S.- I put some things up here: WynnStudio's shop

Comments

[Vickie]

Well, I am so sorry to hear you got rejected; they are out of their minds, if you ask me. They are the ones to lose out on that. You are a wonderful artist!

[wyanne]

Sorry to hear about your rejection...it seems like it always hurts, no matter how big or small it is...and no matter how old we are. Your book and all your artwork and jewelry are incredible. You are an inspiration to us all! Many blessings.

[Just A Plane Ride Away]

Jane, I love your paintings and drawings and am glad to hear you are going to be working on your shrines again. I've missed seeing them on your blog. You are a talented artist and a generous teacher! Thank you for sharing your art with us.

[mirandas]

I can't believe you were rejected! What on earth were they thinking? Your work is terrific and such an inspiration. Thanks for being so open about being rejected and your feelings - the next time I get a rejection, I'll just remember your experience and your renewed determination to do what you love. Can't wait to see the new shrines you create!

[Marjorie]

oh!! I'm so glad to have found your lovely work! :) Such cute glasses, there, too!! :)

[TC]

I'm sorry to hear that Jane! I would imagine it had to have something to do with available booth space and politics rather than your art! Bah. ~tc

[Lisa]

I still can't believe they turned you down as a vendor. Were they only accepting people who had written TWO books?!